Big

So big-always hungry-cranky and uncomfortable. When will this child get here! AGHHHHH!!! I wish there was a magic lamp to rub and babies just appeared. I heard that it used not not be like this. That babies would appear from a cloud of flowers in a cute bassinet. Oh, what joy that would have been.

Trying

I'm trying to stay focused on Selita, but it's hard. I miss Patricia very much. She is supposed to return this June. I wonder if she thinks of me? I think of her often, every simday. I try to kiss Selita and I see Patricia. I look at Selita's tummy and imagine my child-our child growing there, but I want it to be Patricia. If only we could run away from all this.

Expansion

I'm showing now, actually I popped out even more this evening, but this photo was before then. Astaire and I visited the hood's welcome center and we both brought new suitcases. I don't know why, it's not like we're going on a trip anytime soon...are we? I've been having a strange dream about moving? Are we going to move? Where? I hope we have twins-a boy and a girl, that way I won't have to get pregnant again. This sux! I can't play any gigs and I'm stuck inside at home all day :(

Family Enlarging

Selita is preggie. She's not showing yet, but the test was positive. Preggy. I am going to be a father. I called Clark to tell him the good news and he tells me that Elda is preggy too! Ha! Guess us twins are having babies at the same time! I wonder if we will have twins! Mother is excited, she is going to be a grandmother. I wish grandmother and grandfather could have seen thier little great-grand kiddies. The funeral will be simFriday. We will have to take the day off to attend the funeral. Mother said it will be small according to thier wishes and then a public viewing will be later at the gravesite.

Gone

My cousin and his wife have left to go to Palatial Heights. They will be back at the end of May. I hate that! We have a gig for simWednesday and he bailed! That's ok, I'll do the gig alone and get all the tips! Ha! That'll show him!

I want to have a baby. I don't like babies, but Astaire has been...distracted...maybe a kiddo will keep him invested in our marriage. Yea, a baby.